Midnight Prayers

Today the only thing I felt like chanting, as if it could save me or whats left of my soul was,

Ayah, what am I supposed to do?

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The idea of working on contract and living back with my parents is so inviting. I can't even think long term anymore now. If I really think hard, about getting the chance to keep my mom company for a whole month?! To further my studies abroad in a subject that is being taught for free. Well, the mere image is exhilarating. Dear Allah, please give your humble servant the strength to make it through the days strong willed and with Your blessings, please let me find the right path to eternal happiness.

I miss you dad.