Thank God for companion!

I was saved yesterday, by a fallen angel! So glad and thankful that my babes B was around to be lugged around with me to the home deco expo and baby clothes hunting. Didn't do any damage, just marked all the things that I wanted to revisit later during the weekend with my invisible neon post-it tab.

Why are baby clothes so darned expensive?? Haha..I am at peace with the fact that I am carrying a baby boy. I believe I will bury the whole family in bankruptcy (spell?) if I had a bubbly baby girl instead. Its ok, we can try next time!

Tummy update : this is me at 36 wks lovers!

Today I visited my cool as a cucumber doctor, who repeatedly reminded me to steer off the sugars and sweet stuff. Haha. Sorry, I love my pastries. Ok fine today will be the last day I binge on sugar. No serious!! Cause I gained 1.5 kg this month. And I'm up to see him again in 2 more weeks. Dang. 11-11..wonder how many people have signed up for a delivery on that day? I'd rather wait it out. Perhaps 20-11. So he can share the same digits with F =)

I went to see a physiotherapist earlier this evening. She's really cool and talks in all this bone-doctor jargon and I just nod occasionally to show I'm alert in the midst of it all. I'm suffering from SPD. Haha. And she's plastered some funky tape on my arse that looks like a spiderweb. We'll see how that goes.

Two more day.

Trying to find the light on Deepavali

I've always perceived myself as a tough cookie, I mean real tough. But it just tears me apart when I am thrown into the ringer with the current situation I am bearing. Fine fine. Its not like I am the only one going through a long distance relationship (in a nutshell that is what F and I have had since the days we went a courtin') and its not like I am the only one going through pregnancy alone with the occasional husband around. But heck I do not appreciate people coming up to me and say things like, " Aww chill babe me and him, we were also apart when I was preggered.." like seriously?

The core of relating to someone-scrap that. The fundamental basics of trying to understand what someone else is going through is to really reallllllly get in between the facts and imagine what it is like to be me. The devil is in the detail. Not intending on making this entry self centered but hey - when you were pregnant, you had your parents a phone call away didn't you? You had your husband a dial away didn't you? Haha so please pleasee spare my broken soul by saying (what comes across to me as an empty shit phrase) that you went through something of similar nature.

If you could call your mum, husband..saw them at scheduled periods of time. Then shut the fuck up.

Haha ok. Tu je nak cakap.

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On a brighter note I'm celebrating tomorrow with a girlfren and hope to set some sparks on fire! I knoww it is so exciting!!

Haha. Week 36 is sorta driving me loco. No thanks to your absence.

scrpbk

I really enjoy being pregnant. It is a blessing from the One and only. Will not find a single spec of a millisecond to say that I would have done things differently.

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Pieces of my life,

And his.

We used to be two,

but three,

Would be a nicer way to continue,

the journey.

I do miss F being around for the last 2 months of your growth spurt. Be a good baby, please.

Pantun 4 kerat Ujie

Hari ini 12 Oktober,

Ada lagi 4 bulan untuk bersiap,

Kamu semua kawan yang over,

Sila datang dengan mekap.

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Two of my close friends are planning their wedding. Funny how technology can keep everyone on the loop of their preparation. I think its pretty neat. I don't recall having shared my thoughts or asking my bunch of girls what they thought on location, color selection..themes. Ah but no - do not get me wrong. I enjoyed every single moment of the decision making, be it that I had to do most of it on my own.

Its just kinda fun now, that when we meet up, we can talk about how Miss A or Miss B's wedding preps are going and the person of interest need not even be there. Cool.

Filling in the empty space

Am I that much of a loner? Recently, yes. Since he's been gone for almost 6 weeks is it now? What am I to do..A lot of decisions, major ones that need to be made. I do my best by beating the lonely bug with filling my time doing things that would distract me, and make my days more worthwhile..(while waiting for him to come home). I went to antenatal class the other day at PCMC. Had already paid and everything, so glad that Naz could accompany me. Else I'd be like a dumbstruck monkey who'd lost his bananas. Haha. Ok paham tak?

I went to Westlife's concert the other day. It was an office event, pretty cool I know!! During one of the ballads, they asked us to share a dot of light. The outcome is pretty awesome.

Have been hanging out with Adam lately. He's a real charmer. God I pray my little baby boy will be able to sit in high chairs and car seats patiently just like Adam. I teach them cool stuff like sticking out your tongues. Kann..tak pernah buat kan Adam kan?

Just get tired real quick lately. Am getting bigger..and bigger..wow is the word.

This is Big

I feel a bit physically challenged. Especially when I have to walk to the train and lug my laptop bag along. I hate that bag. Its so heavy - darn it.

Some times it feels like I have a ball under my blouse. Sometimes it feels like I have a water bag full of fishies. Maybe then it felt like fishies, but I think its starting to feel more like a baby. I wish I could laugh or giggle every time you moved and kicked like crazy when I am in the presence of others. Hi hi. Its like a secret, right.

Please could I just take leave now. I have no drive.

Henry Ejan

Henry and Ejan. Two of my closest junior engineers. Two of which I would like to say I've 'welcomed' to the nasty world of oil and gas. Sad is the tale of friends departing for the better..Ejan will pursue her journey of finding her place in the coiled tubing world. And Henry will be leaving to look after her pretty preggered self in Norway..



Its weird and hard to explain, the relationship I have with my female work friends. Its like we grew closer in a pressure cooker, and sought each other in extreme times of need, when nobody could relate to the circumstances we are facing on a daily basis.

Do take care. Will miss you both.

Secret Parcels

I'm still scratching my head on how to upload pictures from my iphone. I've had a rough couple of days last week and am not planning on having any this week. 

Its been officially a whole darned month that F has been away and I'm left with my siblings. Luckily Qq has decided to come down to KL and shes tonnes of fun although she does seem to cry a lot.

 My tummy is getting bigger and the lil one is quiet a restless one at that. I doubt that his head ia anywhere near south. I think its still wrong way up or sideways even. Should I feel nervous? I've started on a baby scrapbook and shall continue with a house scrapbook. Talk about planning! I have to design a job that I've never done before..that sucks. Ah well, at least I got someone to accompany me to the antenatal class.. 

 Dear F, please come back soon. I'm bored out of my mind on weekends and I'd really like to get some shopping done.. Thank you for the lovely surprise!! Love you!!!