Wishes when you regret

I think resolution always begin before Ramadhan, new year is just a fad. Like in Ramadhan, you make a promise to do better with God, and in new year, nobody really cares if you execute your Grand Plan or not. I'm not too happy with my performance in the past few Ramadhan. I could have done better. So this year, I will try harder.

I've been kinda cranky lately. I've done pilates like crazy for the past 4 days that I've stayed in this hotel. I like how my body aches at night, the pain keeps me company. It helps me forget that I feel like I am an empty shell sitting on a clean white bed. I've had sushi at this great sushi place. He hates sushi. Mee kolok. Nasi katok.

I'm going tomorrow for 4 weeks this time. It should do me good. It's a cementing via coiled tubing job, and they still have one more zone left for me to participate in. The barge should suck.

Everybody thinks that everybody else has got a life story that is great, more perfect and way more exciting.

Mine is pretty boring. I'm 24. Trying to make my body a temple. And madly in love.

Adoption Sounds Good

I prayed that I was dreaming. Only to find out more of the plot which made me realize that I had dug my own grave.

We met a few months back, it wasn't that long ago. I had the impression that I wasn't or had not been the sole female figure in his life, and I think I made it pretty obvious for him to pick up that I am the jealous type. I met the ex once. It was a pretty stupid raya evening for me. Yea whatever. She looks like one of those Thai late afternoon-telenovela actress, big eyes, pretty lips and smooth skin. Haha. Oh, and the royal hotness was tall with a capital T. Or hot with a capital H. Take your pick.

One night he asked me a pretty straight forward question, and lucky for me. I had a damned good answer.

Only of course, it lead me to ask him something within the same topic. He shrugged it off. And I took it as a yes.

Eleven months later. I found out that all along I had played in my own world of what was it that he called them. Assumptions. Good for you, man. This would be a first. Smack dead center in my face. He pretty much lead me to believe things that were not true of him. And- hold on to your horses- I did ask him time and time again. Three times to be exact.

Eleven months of letting me believe something that was not true.

I suppose that the sane reaction would be of relief..Phew~!!? But it doesn't really look like what we had at hand were a bunch of mixed up adoption arrangement, does it now, mister mister?

Brunei Now

Yeah. Am in Brunei now. Must wait for my Personal Safety Logbook thingy to be done. And then I am outta here, and into the sea. Ooh and then I get to plan my timetable accordingly. Offshore for 4 weeks, which includes the whole fasting month at sea (holy!), and then I can plan to take some days off and be with my family. Uber fun =)

Oh but I think somewhere in the middle of all that good stuff I have to put my review with the boss for my promotion. Boss here and boss in Kemaman. Double trouble.

A brief glance at life: Shaliza Mohktar is saying farewell to her fotopages to which the archives have been set to be off limits. Darn. I'm gonna miss her work. But I can understand her frustration.

Them girls in volleyball are so-damn-hot. How do I get bum bums like those? Haha. My friend Carelia says that I've gotta work for them. Si, claro missy.

I had to change my sleeping location 3 times already. What is the traffic?? In Kuala Belait, Brunei? Why are all the hotels fully booked. Luckily all the hotels have free internet.

My network password has expired today. I'm gonna have a hard time logging in on Monday.

And my girlfren Ayu is going through a rough patch, I think.

Miri Once

Sorry for the foggy picture. But that is Laksa Sarawak I had at the Mega Hotel in Miri. Was there for my offshore safety training and then headed out to Brunei to take part in some jobs so that I could get promoted to the next grade.

It all happened so fast. One minute I was in the Legen Cherating Meeting room with the clients, storming up what looked like a "Generic" HARC. When all the sudden my boss passed me a note saying that he wants me to go for jobs in Brunei, in case the one we were planning for didn't take place. Uber cool boss.

Poor other boss who loves bossing my sorry ass around. Boo-hoo. Even at the meeting he was bossing my ass around. Too bad we had to cancel paintball, or I would've colored you black and blue. Je t'aime~!

Oh behave kin.