No Part Three

Downtown Tulsa.

It turns out that I do not need to read or digest any trilogy. There was no need for me to dwell on the things that are set in stone, determined to happen, in the past. There was no way for me to change them. Sure I will always be jealous of the time that was not mine. But since I already said it the way it is.. The fact that it was not mine to begin with. Then there really is nothing that is of loss to me. I have not yet been able to see myself reflected in you. Your choice of words, songs, trail of thoughts. Most of them are new to me. I guess you keep things spiced up. Cool.

And I can only hear myself breathe calmly, blow a heavy sigh of relief.

The mental war is over, I am finally free. I need to pick up the pieces and continue where I left off.

Hepi merdeka!

Monolog

Aku jarang berbahasa ibunda di ruang ini. Mungkin kerana aku tidak fasih. Bukan forte diriku. Boleh sesedap hati sahaja menyelit unsur2 barat. Agar monolog aku ni lebih berwarna-warni. Menarik untuk si pembaca.

Haha.

Who am I kidding.

Online Window Shoppin'

Meh la teman aku online shopping. Bile exam sudah abes. Project da abes. Whatever sgt. Let's shop! Haha..sini ade Iron Chef America. Best siot.

This purple top I would wear it as a cardigan, not buttoned down like this foxy babe.

Ha this green top is loveleyy. I wouldn't get it in such a small size. Sendat sgt lah.

This aqua henley is very carefree. SO meeeee! I want it in all colors. Mahu mahu!

These pumps are from Simply Vera by Vera Wang. Cute kan? Mcm sgt propper yet stylish. I want to replace my out of service T-bar vincci heels. The funny thing is out of all of these items that I am looking at, I am only dead set on one item. Tadaa~

My own Black Diamond Momentum Primerose Harness!! Bestnyeeeee. (Shoes to come.)

Pablo Neruda would know

Crayola magic markers on sale at Walmarto. And a touch of Elmer's glue to make it *pop*! The flea market was great. Funny experience. Sense of sight, touch and smell. Heavily highlighted with a nagging feeling in the back of my mind. Why her? Scratch that.

If you ever come across a sarcastic suggestion like, "I think you should start smoking again, so that you don't feel like you are being left out on life".. What you need to do is a no-brainer. To some I guess.

I've already said I love you, so please don't smoke. But was shrugged away telling its just a phase. Never meant to de-man someone by restricting their rights on what they want and love to do.

"His friends are all die-hard fans. Loyal, all out and would give anything to help one another. "

I guess smoking is the only thing that counters all that good stuff to make him human.