To be King, and still happy

Recently I saw myself get out of my own zone of comfort by choice and it was purely to please somebody else. How often do we do that - throughout the day, to please the managers, to please our co-workers, to please basically everyone that is least deserving of such gratitude from our weak soul?

I chose the word strong character to being labelled as the mean one. Instead, I found it refreshing that I did everything I could to please my family. WOW. The sole purpose of life itself.

And through our loved ones, we may discover Him, and our love for our prophet may be rekindled. It is not wrong, to discover your purpose through different channels of life. I guess it is all part of growing up, and being a bit more grounded and making more sense.

The hotel was over the top, I know for a fact it is not me in person. It does not matter. The world is nothing but a beautiful, beautiful playground..and you will get lost in it if you forget the main reason why you are there in the first place.

I love you so much. Please let me see the true meaning of life, and still feel this happy in the life after.

Y is for you

How I keep my sanity and self worth with every breath and everytime I hold a pose through each count. 

It has helped me alot, you should try it if you are the curious one.

30

Goodbye e=mc2, v=ir,  y=mx+c, pretty skin, pitless energy, my fountain of youth. You have been real good friends to me in the past decade. We met briefly but you stuck around like it was more than your business.  

Hello motherhood, q=ka/u *dp/dx, office politics, patience. I never knew this is what turning 30 would feel like. Adieu, 20 to 29 years old me. Adieu, best 10 years of my life. It was real fun while it lasted... 

Bismillah, and Alhamdulillah.. Goodbye melancholy, infinite sadness.

Baby blue and gray

Air ran out of my lungs and I was confused if I was supposed to exhale or take more in. Just the profile of you and already I could feel the pieces of giant concrete  walls around me crumble to the ground. A massive explosion... And quietly the world became a gentle buzz of static. I could not hear the conversation, she was complaining too much for me to bear. 

An opted blackout. 

It was just you and me in the lobby now. And as I exhaled, I let you go - again, into the bright sun.

Later that evening it poured, like the uncried tears from my eyes as I soothed the pounding ache away. 

 

The rain, darkness and a song in a minor key, was all I needed.

This party is old and uninviting,

Participants all in black and white,

You enter in fullblown technicolor,

Nothing is the same after tonight.

- incubus