The Huddle

I set up decipher today.

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Today is the day I've been waiting for. I've been waiting for patiently for the past three months. To be handed an empty slate and having your own way of shaping it into something real. "if for some reason this job does not pull through, its all because of you" thats basically the kind of support I received when I was working in KL. Pretty sad, right? I bit back my tongue hard when instantly my brain's network starte to transmit phrases powerd up bby my emotions and logic reasoning hastened with every beat of my heart. And if the job is successful? Then what? I bit my tongue hard and let my heart sink deep.

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31 Aug 2010

Flight aku lewat malam. Aku tak tahu bagaimana driver bayam ni akan tahu aku adalah passenger yang dicari. Kan betul, brade tu tatau pon aku adalah org laut itu. Kerana beg aku tidak biru dan berat. Hotel check-in sangat penuh. Ramai nye orang nak tidur di sini. Bilik best, chopper esok lewat tghari. Aku boleh tidur lama. Tetapi aku nak online puas2. Tamak betul aku ni sejak dua menjak. Part ni dlm perjalanan kerjaya aku, aku suka. sbb laju so macam thrill la konon.

1 Sept 2010

Chopper jam 4 ptg, abang driver kata budak2 yang naik semalam kene keluarkan makanan dari beg masing2. Kesian betul, lagi2 kalau ada yang membawa bekal dari rumah lagi. Aku cuma bawak oatmeal 3-in-1 dan coklat crunchie. Just for the ride. Boring betul pemandangan indah ni aku sgt benci. Teruk kan? Saprais kin, kamu kene duduk di AV. Kenapa nama aku tak ada di list penduduk pelantar? Cisnan. Mabuk la aku macam ni. Kan betul. Dari jam 6 hingga jam 830 ptg aku berguling saje. Aku tak larat nak berbuka. Bau kapal adalah semacam = mabuk.

2 Sept 2010

Harini OK sikit. Bangun awal, tak sahur lapar pagi hari. Padan muke kau. Terus gigih join operation meeting pada jam 8.30 di CKP. CKA ni platform yang ade wellhead, thats where we are working. Tetapi office modules, living quarters platform ni terletak pada CKP. Anyhoots. Jangan risau, aku tak sesat walaupun kena merentasi 3 bijik jambatan dari Lewek Chancellor untuk ke CKP miting pagi hari gigih. Aku bosan la sebab client aku ni mcm tak tahu ape2 je gaye. Gaye je la, we cant really let them fool us. Fool.

I start my day with you

I want to remember, the 730 am texts we used to send. Asking each other where they are at.

I want to remember, the feeling of looking and waiting for you within KLCC premises, we promised to meet at Tiffany's.

I want to remember, the warmth that is filled inside my tiny heart every time you tap on my bag, tug on my shirt, or grab me by my shoulders. Vamos!

I want to remember, the 1230 pm texts I'd send, asking you on your lunch plans.

I want to remember, the little piece of heaven you'd take me to, every time after 5pm and we'd sit near the waterworks as I'd munch down on popiah and vent out to you on how much I hate my job.

Should I also want to remember, every time you had to pack and leave. The awful empty hallow space that you leave me with. I'm such a cry baby, you'd say. But we both know you're just saying it cause you don't really know what else to say.

I'm drafting this as I am getting ready to check out of the hotel. This is weird. We're saying good bye to one another, from afar.

Take care.

Call me abang

I usually walk home from the train throughout the fasting month. It was during those time I would think up of ridiculously stupid things to think about. Just to pass the time and in order to get home in a jiffy.

My brother's previous girlfriend was pretty close to our siblings, but it struck me as a surprise and it annoyed me in the beginning to have her call my brother 'abang'. Initially I think I was dealing with some sharing issues. I've always been close to my brother and to have to share my 'abang' with someone else was a bit too much. Haha.

Now Allah is probably showing to me how things can turn 360 without us noticing. I now call F abang, probably to the disgust of his siblings too. Haha. ah well. I had a friend before try to guess what it is I address F by, and he bluntly told me that I didn't look like the type to call my F abang. Haha. I wanted to curl and laugh but the offshore cabin was too small for that.

Rindu nye la kat abg.