11th Hour

So this is what it feels like. You kicking and the uterus contracting while we are watching Immortal and Tintin. One minute you are playing in lala land, the next you are an unforgiving spasm that leaves me a bit choked on whatever that is in my mouth (I'm munching a lot, always!!)

Its ok..I've faith in myself. I think Faliq is wayyyy more than excited. He's picking up things like what a baby carrier is, burping QQ as a practice platform, and taking the task of choosing a baby stroller wayyy more seriously than I am. He wants the all black version of this stroller, which is equivalent to the neverfull that I want. Tsk tsk.

This is cool. So are we ready for a new member?

Raya Haji 2011

I celebrated being at 38 weeks. Feeling the load now..and seeing the weight =) I've gained 12 kgs and now stand at 63kg. Awesome. You're gonna be one chubby bundle of chumchum-ness. Eternally grateful to those willing to photograph us. Much love!

Photo by : Aizat Ridzuan, my big heart of a cousin. For hire if interested =)

Thank God for companion!

I was saved yesterday, by a fallen angel! So glad and thankful that my babes B was around to be lugged around with me to the home deco expo and baby clothes hunting. Didn't do any damage, just marked all the things that I wanted to revisit later during the weekend with my invisible neon post-it tab.

Why are baby clothes so darned expensive?? Haha..I am at peace with the fact that I am carrying a baby boy. I believe I will bury the whole family in bankruptcy (spell?) if I had a bubbly baby girl instead. Its ok, we can try next time!

Tummy update : this is me at 36 wks lovers!

Today I visited my cool as a cucumber doctor, who repeatedly reminded me to steer off the sugars and sweet stuff. Haha. Sorry, I love my pastries. Ok fine today will be the last day I binge on sugar. No serious!! Cause I gained 1.5 kg this month. And I'm up to see him again in 2 more weeks. Dang. 11-11..wonder how many people have signed up for a delivery on that day? I'd rather wait it out. Perhaps 20-11. So he can share the same digits with F =)

I went to see a physiotherapist earlier this evening. She's really cool and talks in all this bone-doctor jargon and I just nod occasionally to show I'm alert in the midst of it all. I'm suffering from SPD. Haha. And she's plastered some funky tape on my arse that looks like a spiderweb. We'll see how that goes.

Two more day.

Trying to find the light on Deepavali

I've always perceived myself as a tough cookie, I mean real tough. But it just tears me apart when I am thrown into the ringer with the current situation I am bearing. Fine fine. Its not like I am the only one going through a long distance relationship (in a nutshell that is what F and I have had since the days we went a courtin') and its not like I am the only one going through pregnancy alone with the occasional husband around. But heck I do not appreciate people coming up to me and say things like, " Aww chill babe me and him, we were also apart when I was preggered.." like seriously?

The core of relating to someone-scrap that. The fundamental basics of trying to understand what someone else is going through is to really reallllllly get in between the facts and imagine what it is like to be me. The devil is in the detail. Not intending on making this entry self centered but hey - when you were pregnant, you had your parents a phone call away didn't you? You had your husband a dial away didn't you? Haha so please pleasee spare my broken soul by saying (what comes across to me as an empty shit phrase) that you went through something of similar nature.

If you could call your mum, husband..saw them at scheduled periods of time. Then shut the fuck up.

Haha ok. Tu je nak cakap.

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On a brighter note I'm celebrating tomorrow with a girlfren and hope to set some sparks on fire! I knoww it is so exciting!!

Haha. Week 36 is sorta driving me loco. No thanks to your absence.