Thank God for companion!

I was saved yesterday, by a fallen angel! So glad and thankful that my babes B was around to be lugged around with me to the home deco expo and baby clothes hunting. Didn't do any damage, just marked all the things that I wanted to revisit later during the weekend with my invisible neon post-it tab.

Why are baby clothes so darned expensive?? Haha..I am at peace with the fact that I am carrying a baby boy. I believe I will bury the whole family in bankruptcy (spell?) if I had a bubbly baby girl instead. Its ok, we can try next time!

Tummy update : this is me at 36 wks lovers!

Today I visited my cool as a cucumber doctor, who repeatedly reminded me to steer off the sugars and sweet stuff. Haha. Sorry, I love my pastries. Ok fine today will be the last day I binge on sugar. No serious!! Cause I gained 1.5 kg this month. And I'm up to see him again in 2 more weeks. Dang. 11-11..wonder how many people have signed up for a delivery on that day? I'd rather wait it out. Perhaps 20-11. So he can share the same digits with F =)

I went to see a physiotherapist earlier this evening. She's really cool and talks in all this bone-doctor jargon and I just nod occasionally to show I'm alert in the midst of it all. I'm suffering from SPD. Haha. And she's plastered some funky tape on my arse that looks like a spiderweb. We'll see how that goes.

Two more day.

Trying to find the light on Deepavali

I've always perceived myself as a tough cookie, I mean real tough. But it just tears me apart when I am thrown into the ringer with the current situation I am bearing. Fine fine. Its not like I am the only one going through a long distance relationship (in a nutshell that is what F and I have had since the days we went a courtin') and its not like I am the only one going through pregnancy alone with the occasional husband around. But heck I do not appreciate people coming up to me and say things like, " Aww chill babe me and him, we were also apart when I was preggered.." like seriously?

The core of relating to someone-scrap that. The fundamental basics of trying to understand what someone else is going through is to really reallllllly get in between the facts and imagine what it is like to be me. The devil is in the detail. Not intending on making this entry self centered but hey - when you were pregnant, you had your parents a phone call away didn't you? You had your husband a dial away didn't you? Haha so please pleasee spare my broken soul by saying (what comes across to me as an empty shit phrase) that you went through something of similar nature.

If you could call your mum, husband..saw them at scheduled periods of time. Then shut the fuck up.

Haha ok. Tu je nak cakap.

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On a brighter note I'm celebrating tomorrow with a girlfren and hope to set some sparks on fire! I knoww it is so exciting!!

Haha. Week 36 is sorta driving me loco. No thanks to your absence.

scrpbk

I really enjoy being pregnant. It is a blessing from the One and only. Will not find a single spec of a millisecond to say that I would have done things differently.

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Pieces of my life,

And his.

We used to be two,

but three,

Would be a nicer way to continue,

the journey.

I do miss F being around for the last 2 months of your growth spurt. Be a good baby, please.

Pantun 4 kerat Ujie

Hari ini 12 Oktober,

Ada lagi 4 bulan untuk bersiap,

Kamu semua kawan yang over,

Sila datang dengan mekap.

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Two of my close friends are planning their wedding. Funny how technology can keep everyone on the loop of their preparation. I think its pretty neat. I don't recall having shared my thoughts or asking my bunch of girls what they thought on location, color selection..themes. Ah but no - do not get me wrong. I enjoyed every single moment of the decision making, be it that I had to do most of it on my own.

Its just kinda fun now, that when we meet up, we can talk about how Miss A or Miss B's wedding preps are going and the person of interest need not even be there. Cool.