Make It a Yes or No

What we mean by letting you do the deciding has nothing to do with the fact that we are not pitching in on the whole decision making- task allocation or whatever you call it, scenario. We just want the fine details of the issue to be laid out for us to simply accept. Once in a while, it would be nice to be lead by someone who can be seen as the next leader of the universe (ok, this is a bit melodramatic) but that is definitely how I feel right now.

I tell him 'You decide'
and he says 'Lets decide together'
I retaliate 'No, really. You decide.'
He utters 'This decision isn't really gonna work if I go over it alone'

Ohh bugger! Just decide for crying out loud! And I'm supposed to be the female other half here. Yes, I would like to get the chance to be frantic over what to wear or which handbag makes me look like a million bucks. Unfortunately, I don't get to do that too often.

So the next time a female other tells you to decide. Just do it. You're so much better at doing things you're not told to. Which makes it rather whimsical to decide together-gether what time we were supposed to leave for that much overdued movie treat.

Picturesque

Sesungguhnya kakak ipar gc sangat sangat sangatt cun. *sigh* Tp iloy tak suke senyom, au contraire to my gc! I wish them years of happiness to come, many many kids and hopefully all stories of love will end like a fairy tale (in a sense) inysaAllah. *sighhhhh*

Puzzle Pieces

Everything is kind of perfect. Kind of. My friend is getting engaged soon and her big wedding follows suit. Perfect. How should I say this, I am truly, sincerely happy & excited for her. Marriage! Babies will come up next and by the time I get married, she'll probably have 3 to 4 of her own youngs. Perfect. I just made her sound like a cow. Speaking of cows, look at how glowingly bloated n*rjuma has gotten! Perfect. Haha.

I am happy for my friend who; shall remain unnamed (so stop asking who she is), because she's got something confirmed coming up in the near future. I'm not jealous that she is tying the knot soon, just the mere fact that she is makes me question my present being. Yess, I love him and hopefully he loves me too. But how how howw confirmed is this? I don't care if you freak out when you read this, humor me: I get to freak out everytime the thought crosses my mind.

What if along the way something changes? Then all we've got and worked for today shall remain as unfinished pieces?

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I hate it when I see people wear heels. And just so you know, all this fiber crap is for you. Every single flake of it. I do this so that I feel less insecure, on the outside where its laid out for you to see. Perfect.

Weather Forecast

I've just received some disturbing news. Well, its in the news. Utusan Malaysia reports on an El-Nino attack on our South East Asia region from march till august. I read it here. The last attack, as reported was 10 years ago, in 1997. That got me walking a hell of a long way, ten years long long long ago. The El-Nino is expected to bring draught and perhaps the reoccurance of forest fires in the region. You remember it now? Zaman jerebu?

In 1997, I was 13 years old and studying in Kuala Pilah, Negeri Sembilan. I don't remember much about the weather back then, but I do remember the fact that there was a brief period when the water supply was not enough to accomodate the students. I never understood by what princip the Head Master held on to by not letting us all just go home.

Everyone rushed to the toilets after the afternoon prep class. No one went out to play. Even our ablutions were taken from coke bottles filled with last night's effort to contain some remains of water.

On alternate evenings, the lower forms were given permission to finish night prep classes early so that we could do our laundry, bathe and tadah air before the rest of the forms 4 & 5 got back from night prep. That time in life was very stressful. Especially to those who were getting their periods. I don't remember how my periods were, but I think I hadn't had mine yet then. Lucky me.

Then there was the jerebu event. Morning assembly was cloudy and I though that the government should have enforced all students to wear the mask thingy.

So the comeback of El-Nino is going to happen soon. And probably on a bigger scale. The thought alone is sending my system into overdrive. Somehow I believe that our time here is running out. For the day of resurrection is near.

And Allah knows best.