Chase Me

I’ve put on a pair of new shoes, I’m running now. I run with no directions, but I know I’m moving further and more lost in the game of deception I made for us to play. And still you chase me down. I run the bend like I’ve never done before. I run and I hide. But the truth just seems to catch up with me much faster than I’d expect. The tune from a song, the pose of a picture, brings me back to the date, back there to the humid air, to the heart pacing moment I wish would never end. I saw you right there in front of me.

And it did.

How is it that a well-wisher gets the whole world turned on her back in a glimpse of an eye? How?

And you say you love me, but you do it again.. and again and again..

Whistling Sparkles

Whistling Sparkles, the box reads. No kidding. I just got back from some post raya fireworks fun and play with my loved ones, gc n ms.Radio. Had a bit of a fix choosing where we'd actually play the fireworks since the police are really enforcing the law against them and I didn't think it was any fun to run away from the varsity guards either.. so we settled for a strip of road not usually used but had access to ample lighting to avoid suspicion or problematic accusations - just in case.

Anyways, I am the honorable supplier of these illegal paraphernelia (spelling?) and the setting of the camera was at long shutter mode, set to 1.3" (I think thats how to type it) and iso 50.. 50??!!! nak buat ape ngn 50. adei la..so the first batch were rather horrid and dark. No matter now, I remembered for the 2nd shooting session which was held later after gc dropped us off and we had our own photoshoot in the center park, and then right under Block J.

La mischevious enfante

Neither me nor my roomate were the kaki mercun pon.. so both of us blew our socks off just trying to light the darned thing - okay la.. maybe me more than her, but when it came to the thunderclap thingy.. that was the ultimate rush. mcm bodoh cover telinga, camera lupe nak on. haha!! Too bad. Next time Im going to try to scribble something with the light, like write a "g" and then "c" gosh. Now Im really cheesy. Hahaha.. Pardon pardon.

The ones with the black cat on the box was the whistling type. The noise it made was loud. you'd probably think it was a thunderclap Im holding but it wasn't. gc was even more clever and lit one up right there in his residential rec room. Had tonnes of fun.

Im so going to fucking miss this place.

Hypnotize Me

Magic is cool. Unknown, surreal, mysterious. But I prefer science and facts. I'm gonna do an experiment on myself pretty soon. Hope the magician in me will come up with a miracle..Silly sentence.

Zam zam ala KaZaamMM!!

Isolation

Well its only the 2nd day of raya and I'm already back here. To the place I most belong. Feels good. I've been living in and out of places for the past 10 years I guess, eversince my parents moved from KL and posted to Singapore, and now to Switzerland. I like to have my own space, my own set of rules and I dont really like being told what to do. That way of life probably became my way of life unintentionally but deliberately just to cater my need to have a sense of belonging.

Some resolutions, none.

Dont feel like talking about it at the moment. Things suck when you feel like you're doing something for the good of others, but then it turns out that they think you got it all wrong and then the next thing you know, you're the one to blame and now you've got to bane yourself from any human contact just to save yourself the trouble. Stupid.

I hate raya this year.