Miss this

I am currently working on graphics for a personalized bag and am going through some old pictures I have and am realizing how much I miss this phase. That's me juggling the super cold weather, trying to enjoy the sun and snow, whilst at the same time making sure the lil raisin bun is still alive and breathing underneath the fleece blanket. Fun fact - most of the time he would wail like crazy as the cold air shoots right into his baby lungs but then would happily fall asleep until we stop for a bite. We were just going across the street to Kepyeh (a lovely 3 story mall) and already I had my anxiety ready to burst just 5 steps out of the double doors.

Days go by and more things that used to be of ease to me is now becoming more of a chore. I have doubled my yoga intake now, thanks to this nice group of ladies who practice and have class right where I live - although secretly I can sense they are not fond of me mainly because I can do most of the poses but am hoping that the instructor will set the vibe for open learning process throughout. 

At 30, I believe the only remedy that works for me is good old cardio workout. And like my cuckoo bird buddy have mentioned. I need to make the best of the eggs while they are still fresh. 

There's a lot I miss.

It is Monday, and I am suffering the attacks from the silent killer pose of galavasana, pincha, as well as the full dancer's pose.

Blue hue hooo

Back from my wonderful vacation and straight into hell..at work. So hard to explain to people how bad the situation is. Catastrophic. Even though I can't spell out who was at fault.

I had no time to suffer from back-from-vacation-blues, or Monday-blues, or any sort of blue hue boo hoo.

I am so lazy to upload photos from our recent trip. I have to make it count!

Year end, everyone is making plans to celebrate - the year.

Let's all have a blast.

Love.

Take me here again

Time spent to reflect, to walk and see Him in everything around you - is humbling, is reassuring, and damn right it is scary. 

Once I passed by a girl and she had some parts of her body revealed albeit covering her hair -  and I was pressured to think that I needed to say something to her just to make sure she knew how much of her body we could see. But I bit my tongue. I cared too much about how people feel intruding their private space was not an open concept here. And surely I would not have enjoyed it either if it was me who had a complete stranger come up to me and say my arms were not fully covered, or my jeans showed the shape of my knee caps.

So it is true, the world is a living hell full of tests and beautifully covered up with things that sparkle and catch our eye. How easily we are deceived.

I dreamed twice, of you this week. We talked on the phone and again shared information and thoughts. I wake up and enjoyed the recollections of fiction, then I slowly pull my hair back in a tight bun and enter the bathroom to get ready for work.

Between Dhuha and Fajr'

Post Ramadhan,  I decided to trim down my scope on understanding the Quran. I found the longer verses of the Makkaniah times too long and as Nouman Ali summarized, the message is the same, and it is being repeated just so that it could resonate in the hearts of the ummah and make it a habit - to live by the messages.

Of late, I am enjoying the mind game I play on my own, as I chose to start memorizing the shorter more prose-like verses in the shorter surahs and this time with meaning.

Why is there both a surah on the time of dhuha, as well as a time of fajr? 

I think it is for us to see that, the world offers us the best opportunity to take heed and make a living for ourselves (Ad-Dhuha), whilst if we do not be careful (Al-Fajr), we can also succumb to the worldly delights and suffer from it too. 

"He found you lost, and guided you,

He found you poor, and made you self-sufficient" (Ad-Dhuha 7& 8)

"And as for man, when his Lord tries him and (thus) is generous to him and favours him, he says, "My Lord has honored me..
But when He tries him, restricting his subsistence for him, then he says (in despair), "My Lord has humiliated me!" (Al-Fajr 15 & 16)

Anyways, just food for thought, I am still trying to make sense of this but with restricted wanderings..its always best to learn these things with a teacher so as to not go astray. Happy reflecting.