Take me here again

Time spent to reflect, to walk and see Him in everything around you - is humbling, is reassuring, and damn right it is scary. 

Once I passed by a girl and she had some parts of her body revealed albeit covering her hair -  and I was pressured to think that I needed to say something to her just to make sure she knew how much of her body we could see. But I bit my tongue. I cared too much about how people feel intruding their private space was not an open concept here. And surely I would not have enjoyed it either if it was me who had a complete stranger come up to me and say my arms were not fully covered, or my jeans showed the shape of my knee caps.

So it is true, the world is a living hell full of tests and beautifully covered up with things that sparkle and catch our eye. How easily we are deceived.

I dreamed twice, of you this week. We talked on the phone and again shared information and thoughts. I wake up and enjoyed the recollections of fiction, then I slowly pull my hair back in a tight bun and enter the bathroom to get ready for work.

Between Dhuha and Fajr'

Post Ramadhan,  I decided to trim down my scope on understanding the Quran. I found the longer verses of the Makkaniah times too long and as Nouman Ali summarized, the message is the same, and it is being repeated just so that it could resonate in the hearts of the ummah and make it a habit - to live by the messages.

Of late, I am enjoying the mind game I play on my own, as I chose to start memorizing the shorter more prose-like verses in the shorter surahs and this time with meaning.

Why is there both a surah on the time of dhuha, as well as a time of fajr? 

I think it is for us to see that, the world offers us the best opportunity to take heed and make a living for ourselves (Ad-Dhuha), whilst if we do not be careful (Al-Fajr), we can also succumb to the worldly delights and suffer from it too. 

"He found you lost, and guided you,

He found you poor, and made you self-sufficient" (Ad-Dhuha 7& 8)

"And as for man, when his Lord tries him and (thus) is generous to him and favours him, he says, "My Lord has honored me..
But when He tries him, restricting his subsistence for him, then he says (in despair), "My Lord has humiliated me!" (Al-Fajr 15 & 16)

Anyways, just food for thought, I am still trying to make sense of this but with restricted wanderings..its always best to learn these things with a teacher so as to not go astray. Happy reflecting.

Black mats and heart shaped boxes

I've always wanted to upload a post where I show all the different groups I am involved in, the different activities, the facades you have. Your interests. Looking for the photos was a bit tiring so I shall share this one here.

Of late it has been a lot about yoga, I do not run as much I think it shakes things up way too much in my body and the recovery period is a bit more damaging. Which is why I now stick closer to yoga and even doing it at home to make the most of the practice in class. 

This shot of us after class was just one of the nicest things we could ever agree to do together. That is the pixie of a lady Sazzy, and in front of her is the guest instructor for the night, Azmi. 

Money can't buy happiness but you are supposed to be wise on how you spend it. Make memories, go out and do stuff. Sure we are all lazy to get out of our comfort zone, but the extra mile of taking the time to do something different will make the whole journey a lot more enjoyable.

Hope for more zen-like happiness. Bottle it up and store it on the counter of health and good times. So I can reach for more whenever I am low.

And fold

I think I'm doing alright. 

Only thought about you twice, and the rest was mostly about dying and understanding other bits and pieces of life.

My only remaining task is to settle my worldly debts. Other than that its all on me.