I'm a believer2 you see

He left her to meet me, and I left him so that he could finally be with her again.  It was an epic tale coming straight out of a story book. Aisle #13 Young Adult Fiction. Played out for almost 10 years. The only reason we meet is so that we could part.

How is the lil Shikin? The one who used to sneak in kicap into the dormitories. What does she look like? I wonder if  where she is hiding in you now.

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I ran yesterday, its been a few days since I last ran. Funny how before running you actually planned on what things to sort out in your brain while running. The only thing I managed was my off tempo breathing and the excruciating pain in my body as it cramped against the cold post rain weather.  So much for mental torture. Damned heels. It was the first time I cramped around my rib cage. Must be the lack of eating. 

The heart wants what the heart wants. Its time my heart went on a serious team building with my brain.

Ilham Ku

I've been knocked silly and inspired to write I hope the juices in my brain will not halt their flow and I can dump how mind blowing the past few days has been for me so that when I do grow old as a tree, I can read this blog and see how much I lived life. Even if it meant sitting in an office 8-5 and washing the dishes at night and driving the car alone (well not that often but you get my drift).

Dear Future Me,
You were a great person. Fret not. There is no use in doubting the present, so please don't stop yourself from living your future.

Love,
Present Me.

To forgive is not to forget..

I have so much I want to say and ask - but it is no longer my turn to do so. I seek your health when I see others, telepathically absorbing bits and pieces from around me. The last thing we need is interaction. 

You have travelled. Its a pretty awesome collection you have. Like you said, keep the photograph and still frames in your mind ..hang it on a shelf of good health and good times..

Happy birthday! and to all the future birthdays you will have with your loved ones. This will be the last time you hear from me. No matter what each one of us does, we cant change the fact that we were a big part of each others lives in our colorful youth.

I need to apologize sincerely for the past.. kerana Dia. Saya minta maaf. 

Please continue to travel, climb, ride, play music, be the cheeky monkey you are. Love. If we cross paths one day, you'd nod and we'd exchange a brief smile and keep walking..don't look back in anger.

Thank you for everything, I wish you success and eternal happiness wherever you may be. 

Goodnight, travel well 

- The Killers

Changing the Past

Some sentences suggesting things from the past  are just so wrong. Like eating yesterday's dinner, or writing out last month's happenings. Then there is changing the past. Something I almost always think about doing every so often.

Explaining yourself sometimes makes even the cloudiest situation seem crystal clear.

I am at my lowest yet.

I ban all forms of clips, photos, status updates that shares things that I am unable to do like mountain bike riding in Nepal, or via ferrata up Mt Kinabalu, or trekking in the Gobi Desert.

Nowadays there are only a few things that can lift up my spirits. Do something kind towards others, workout, and of course the rare days where I dont tire out taming my bub into bed.