Siamese Twins

It happened during recess this morning. I was playing a rough game of elimination where we used a dodge ball and threw it at one another. Those hit, would be considered out. My foot missed a step and I fell on the hard concrete. It felt like a prick, but now stung like acid. And just look at that cut. Scowl.

You were hanging around the monkey bars when it happened. Running through the hallways we went to the nurse's office for a dab of iodine and watched her carefully wipe of the access yellow puss oozing endlessly with every swab of the cotton ball.

Nurses' office are always cool.

We are like siamese twins now. The scraped knee even makes you wilt a little when you run.

One autumn, right around the first week of school, you seemed a little off color. You tell me you have been feeling sick for a while. Your fever is getting worse. I think you should go to the nurse's office and spend the day in sick bay. It's not manly, you defend. It is easily curable, even if I treat it on its own. Owh, I say.

We used to think going to the nurses office was so much fun.

We are still like siamese twins now.

Each going in the exact opposite direction.

Si je vous laissais

Ne me quitte pas - nina simone. I love this song featured in Muhksin.

Gc once said that we enjoy songs performed by the opposite sex. I believe that it is somewhat true. I love incubus. Wish it was me 'he' was missing in I Miss You. Or I could say I love Jason Mraz, and does 'he' think of me, and immediately relate me to the stars, like in Bella Luna?

"Mystery the moon, A hole in the sky,
The cosmic fish, they love to kiss
They're giving birth to constalations..

You are an illuminating anchor,
I'm just a singer, You're the world,
All I can bring you,
Is this language of a Lover.."

And of course, it lead me to invision, if I was to leave him one day, would he wait for me right there and stayed to watch me smile, and dance? The promise of pearls of rain when there is no rain to be found? Such were the words sung by nina simone. But then, she's a she.

All this mental debate and euphoric high from my hormones made me ask myself, am I that sadistic? Like some sort of depressed sick puppy? To want him to feel the pain of losing me when surely, I am standing here, still? Psycho. To want to feel like I am placed on a pedestal. To be praised after. To feel adored forever? I mean, really. If bandon boyd, and jason can.. does it mean that you can too, love?

The other night me and some girlfriends were in the car listening to Mahakarya Cinta by faizal. The sort of high I get is not from his voice, but more from the things he says about how great his love is for the woman in his life. It always makes me feel and wish that 'he' would feel that way towards me.

I am a dreamer. By not connecting to what I say is a definite possibility. I am a dreamer.

là où l'amour sera roi,
là où l'amour sera loi..
et vous êtes mon prince

Petronas Interview

Petronas Interview!!! Its pretty much the interview of the century for us petronas scholars, taking aside the other mother of all interviews, like the one with schlumberger et all. I was in the first batch of names, so I consider it to be lucky to get it overwith a.s.a.p! My slot was supposed to be from 11-12pm friday, but those from the wednesday and thursday session complained of how late things got, I decided to sleep in and arrive at the interview venue about 2 hours later than the suggested assembly time of 8 am. So nice lah, my bantal busuk. Haha.

I got there late, so I missed my friends from the 8 and 9 am slots. There were only these 3 girls left to accompany me. Sab, anith and emma. Everyone looked so nice decked out in propper suits and so smart and pretty! Ha ha. As expected, I was the only one to be hyped since I was pretty fresh out of bed where else the rest had been waiting for like, 3 hours or so. Poor things.

The 11 am slot were all mechanical students, this is firdaus and omar and mkok in the back.

These girls left for the 10 am slot..so I had all the boys to myself after that. Haha. This was in the waiting room, the next room to go to was the preparation room, where they gave us a case study which will be elaborated and discussed with the examiner/interviewer in the interview room. They gave us about 30 minutes to prepare any notes or gather our thoughts =)

Matle..being summoned to go into the preparation room. Our portfolios, forms and cvs were handed in and sorted by this personnel. Very efficient if I must say. The waiting room, preparation rooms were bloody cold. Sebek g lamat, klo tak da frostbite da aku nih. I think I have a circulation problem, my toes and fingers freeze up real quick.

Dan ku katakan pada Cinod, "Ape nak ckp klo die tanye psl Oil Price ek??"

And much to my disbelief, or well that was kind of strong. Much to my - ye la disbelief!! I got the Oil topic for my case study. I think I did ok. The role play was a bit tiring on me mentally. All the sudden I'm the manager of a factory and I felt like I've been repeating the same excuses again and again. Haha. Sohri la Encik Ahmad from Carigali, I might not make the cut for a manager just yet, perhaps in 5 years time? Ngahaha..All in all, syukur, alhamdulillah.. It's so bloody over!!!

Done with my session, time for some silly photography taking. Oh happy, happy =)

GOOD LUCK to those being interviewed in the upcoming sessions!! My advice, don't get too worked up over the case study, better be prepared with strategies for the role play, tough cookie, that one!

Smile With Me

Hey, you.
Keep your chin up.
Come tickle me from within.

We're both in helpless doubt,
why don't you start with a grin?

So yeah, baby,
smile with me.

'Cause everything's gonna be more,
more than a dream.

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And to think I need you most at times like this, is way too selfish of me to ask.